Letters to God

Usually I am happy with who I am and love my uniqueness. Some days though, that little voice inside tries to get the better of me and convince me I don't fit in and don't belong. Well, I try to remind it that 1) I don't want to fit in, I wasn't made to fit in, God made me an original and why would I want to be anything else, and as for 2) not belonging...that one I struggle with even more. I try not to listen. I go back and forth on my thoughts for this. And please don't take this the wrong, I'm content with life here...but Earth is not my forever home. So maybe I'm not suppose to feel like I belong here. The end result is eternity in Heaven (as a Christian this is my belief but obviously may or may not be yours, please be respectful). Heaven is where I belong....Earth is a holding place. This thought gives me comfort. I don't mean for this to sound morbid or depressing in any way.  Just a little bit of a heavier thinking kind of moment. Processing i

Well, hello! It's been quite some time.  Who knew it would be this long between entries...that I'd, first of all, take such an unplanned break, second that I'd come back. Ha!  Well, here I am. I'm sorry it's been so long. Dear Father, you know I have not neglected You. But perhaps my writing I have.  This seems to be how I connect with You best. And oh how I long to better connect with You. I read my devotionals, but I have such trouble absorbing, I have such trouble following in my day-to-day walk.  I want to be a shining example of Your love and light but this darn human flesh is weak and there are so many distractions.  That's not to say I'm trying to make excuses, it's just fact. I'm definitely a flawed human, but then, aren't we all. That said, I'd like to attempt to recommit to these writings and trying to process my life and processes in a way that I connect better with You. So, goals for the next while: start writing here